I know its only been four days since I posted anything, but it feels like weeks in my head. I’ve just been…..I don’t know. Restless? Thinky (that’s when you think way too much)? My head feels like it’s turned upside down. Anyway, my problems are unimportant, lets just chalk it up to a case of the crazies.
I think I might have an anxiety disorder. The doc’s verdict is yet to come. But it could just be hypochondria. Which got me to thinking – I’m a hypochondriac if I think I have some sort of an illness. That means I’m a hypochondriac if I think I’m a hypochondriac.
I hear there are meds out there for hypochondria. But don’t you think the whole point is missing? If I take meds for getting rid of my hypochondriac-ness, then isn’t that feeding my belief that something is wrong with me, thereby concluding that I am a hypochondriac?
So would the meds ever help? I mean, as long as I believe that something is wrong with me, I will take the meds. If they work and get rid of my paranoia of being sick, I’ll stop taking them because I’m better. Then effect of the medicine will wear out, and since I’m a hypochondriac at heart I’ll start getting paranoid all over again. It’s a vicious cycle!
Oh gosh, I have a headache.